I thought I was ok

Apparently not. I completely freaked out on my family today. Cried the whole way home. I don't know what happened. I'm hurting and I'm pretty sure that my body is clearing out everything. So I've felt kinda bad. But holy crap, I completely lost it today. I'm just not that person and I'm just not sure what came over me.

This really SUCKS! Now I'm feeling......like this just bites. Why again?? Am I ever going to be able to get pregnant and carry it full term? I just want to be NORMAL! Just freakin NORMAL! I'm so tired of this. =o( I don't want to be strong, or brave. I want to be a MOM. That's it. Is that too much to ask?!?!?!?